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Day was off as soon as it started, I don't know why I expected anything different. Skipped the gym to get to the office early. Postponed assistant interviews to put out a fire (figurative) with one of the lab tech's work. Didn't get to the security install so hopefully we don't have any fires (literal) until that gets done.
I start every new year thinking this is going to be different, I'm setting new goals, I'm making new routines, and I don't. Have to start facing the facts that I'm a creature of habit and my habit is being permanently 1 day behind on everything. That familiar feeling, nothing is going off the rails yet but I'm definitely not the one steering this ship. Things are slipping. I'm better than this.
Already breaking my resolution for really solid in and out times at the office, but I'm glad I stayed late. Feels good to be there alone, and honestly I miss doing the bench work. The techs are good most of the time, they can handle it, I just don't like feeling like I'm out of touch with my own work. Phone meetings all afternoon, me in that stupid conference room talking about things other people are working on. Is this delegating? Is this leadership? Because it feels like spending a lot of time not doing what I'm best at.
I have to go to sleep, I'm just annoying myself now.